Chill it dude..

my dad just freaked out yelling "I KNOW, she texted Me FOUR times, and Morten, and you. i know..." i seriously just passed on a message from my mom. she just wanted to be sure that my dad had seen the text she had sent him... i mean. seriously, chill it. it's not my effing fault. you know - it might be something important. and since you are VERY bad at replying text's she just wanted to be SURE you had got it. don't freak out yelling at me.

God. that just totaly busted my good mood. for christs sake. dammit. i was in a really good mood. and that just took the air right our of the baloon. thanks again dad.

divorced parrents S-U-C-K-S....

im sick of this. for crying out loud. get MOOOVING.. im sick of living at home, but i made a deal with my mom about not moving out as long as im sick. but i just don't feel like im getting any better...!!!

and as long as 'living at home' is living in the house i always counted as the house where i would visit my parents when the got old. (that was a dream i had until my dad busted that too by wanting a divorce.) im sure as HELL not getting any better....!!!! i am so sick of this. why can't they just agree about one fucking last thing and get the stupid house SOLD...! i wanna get out of there... all those memories from when i grew up, and all my dreams about the future, they linger with the house and i see them every day of my life. they are right there, mocking me.

i don't know shit about where my life is going. i don't know where i'll be in 10 years. god, i don't even know where i'll be in two months. but i sure as hell always thought that i would come back to the house i grew up in, to visit my old parents. that i would be able to show my future kids where i learned to walk, where i used to live, and to tell stories about it. but that whole dream was blasted away the 4. of october 2009.

i feel like screaming right now. screaming my lungs out, never stopping. but i know that would be silly. but, do you know the feeling of a hell lot of sound building up inside you, just wanting to come out. it feels like im going to explode. im so fucking frustrated.

and to put on top of everything else, two people i love are not as good as they are supposed to be. i hate to se my friends down. right now, all i can say is: the majority of guys SUCKS, and should just go to fucking hell....!!!

im so fucking pissed. i HATE backstaberes, and even if he knows that he did something stupid because he was drunk, I'TS STILL NO FUCKING EXCUSE...! you could just text an appology. i know you are proud and stuff, but for god's sake...! im so tired of seeing my friends being stepped on, over and over again. they don't deserve it. she's SO much better than you. You never deserved her anyway...! but she has worked SO hard to get back after the last motherfucker. she has been so afraid of trusting anyone. i told her to be strong and give it a try, and you just brought her down again. what the hell do you think you are playing at. i know, that you KNEW about her ex. how on EARTH could you make youself break up over the phone, and backstap her to the ONE guy who was nice to her and took care of her when she was drunk. WHY DO YOU THINK SHE WAS DRUNK???? - because of YOU. you god damned, slimy uglyfaced, backstabbing, stupid, brainless IDIOT. i really just wanna beat the crap out of you. not that i think i can. if it wasn't because it would bring her i troubble, i whould come to the school and tell you one or two things about what happens when people hurt my friends like that.! and yeah, you can say all you want. i know i can't beat you up, but i really don't care. if you as much as TOUCH her again, i'll call the police on you. DEAL WITH THEM...!

im so fucking mad right now.